Saying Goodbye

Learning, living, and letting go. Letoya Luckett on repeat. I dont quite understand nor am I going to try to. She said my attitude sucks and she doesnt like arguing, that she would feel trapped. BUT she wants to co-parent my daughter together and still be in my life as a friend. HUH? Doesnt make any sense so dont rack your brain trying to comprehend such foolishness. Wants to come lay up in my bed and put her arms around me when she is bored or lonely. WRONG! I wont do it. I was warned and I wont be who she wants me to be so she might want to go back to her past and resurrect the friendship she had before with HER* because it's not going down on my end. Feeling so sick to my stomach wishing I waited another semester before returning to school because I so badly want to run. Runway from my problems and leave them where they are. Hoping that they would disappear and my spirit and heart can be set free. I need to pray about it. Real hard about it. Ask god to show me a way around it. I cant be her friend. Never been in this predicament but I know it wont work, so I dont even want to try. She was far from willing to try for me. Said she gave her all when she couldnt have if her mind and heart were somewhere else and her body with me. I had reason to have attitude. Oh just forget it. I wanna forget the whole thing. Just let it blow in the wind. Never to been thought or spoken of again. Getting it off my chest.