Fighting Temptation.

It's the forgiving side of me. The side that wants to believe that everyone has pure intentions. It's my longing for companionship that I struggled with today. Had to keep telling myself I deserve more. I deserve better that what is for me will be for me and not shared with someone else. I wanted to forget about the heartache, to forget about the pain. But I need to feel it to keep me grounded to let me know that what I'm doing is RIGHT for me in the long run. Had to rebel against instant gratification. It's not easy but if I dont stand my ground I will never reach my full potential and the love I have will never be exuded. It's not easy, taking it one day at a time. Just repeating I love me more than I love her. I deserve to be number one, I deserve the best. I can do bad all by myself. I love who I am and someone will love me for the qualities I possess.